mardi 7 juillet 2009

I'M NOT FOR F******!!!



Angel "'lover" (1): angel!

Angel: yes

Angel "lover" (1) : i'feel sthg for u!

Angel (yeah!!)

Angel "lover" (1): u re so sweet, (bala blabla..) u have a great personality, u re soft, affectionate, ...
I like u (bala blabla..), and i like every thg in u,...

-as all girls i begin to live the dream:)-
Angel "lover" (1): at our next meeting i'll kiss u, hug u, and more!

-disapointed...it si not love ...it just sex!!-

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Angel "lover" (2): missing u so much

Angel: oh really !

Angel "lover" 2: yes sure but u don't feel me, u never cared about me or my feelings!

-I feel sorry for him-

Angel "lover 2": give me one chance! give ur self a chance to love me!

-why not?!!-

Angel: may be we should start to see each other again

Angel "lover 2": yes we should, u know u re a young charming girl, u should give the opportunity to ur self to live the real life!!
u should have someone to look after u, u should have a man to give u affection, u re human like us and any one in our age has needs ..physical needs..u re not a saint!!

-I feel disappointed as usually he seeks sex not love..and he is legitimating that by physical needs!!-

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Angel "lover" 3: i'm deadly wanting to hang out with u, i want to see u!

Angel: (after he insits), ok why not we can take coffee together one day

Angel "lover" 3: I'm going weekend to hamamet , do u want to come with me

Angel (frankly) : i can't

Angel"lover" 3: comme on we will have fun!

we will enjoy the sun and the sea, do u swim with bathingsuit,bathingsuit+"short", bikini or else,..

Angel (frankly )!!: no thanks

I feel disappointed...he is looking for fun and accesories (like sex may be,..)

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Angel "lover" 4:.... bla blabla

...I'm going to Turkey do u come with me?

Angel (frankly) thanks for the invitation but i can't

Angel"Lover" 4: no really u should come with me

Angel (trying to be polite in declining his invitation) : I already visited Turkey i liked very much Istanbul

Angel"Lover" 4: so u should come with me to enjoy again Istanbul

Angel (ppffffffffff)


why all men i meet love me......love me not for my self..love for sex, fun, ...should I bear a sign on which sould i write: I'm not a play girl!, I'm not a girl for fun!, I'm not a girl to F**********!!!, Does progress in our society means that values do not exist any more!!! does it mean all girls re the same!! no innocent girsl any more!! Why men do not any more make difference between "el bneya el 3akla" and bitch!! why our men treats women like sexobjects! I'm modern girl free to talk, to treat any subject, to go, to come, to travel, to meet people, ... but never never i will let down my values!! i seek love yes but to meet the person with whom i will share my life..only my husband will touch me ....i'm keeping my self untouchable just for him...may be it is to idealistic to platonic...in this point i confess i'm old fashion!!! and i'm proud to be!!!

Who really want me and love me , the only way to have me is a ring in my finger and a white wedding dress!!

I'M NOT FOR F**********

I'll kill her for sure!!!


I' can't stand any more, tolerate any more she is trying to steal from me the best thing i'm proud to have ..my freedom..once i'm home she is following me..knocking hard my door at any time at morning, noon, afternoon, night..even i don't open the door she knocks and knocks ...

I step in my home trying not to do any nose.... not to move any thing from its place ..not to open the window..to not use lights...nothing is working..she is like a ghost she finds me even i'm very well hiding!!

I hated the day i' was born ..i hated being kind, polite, altruist i hated my humanity tendency..

I'll become selfish i don't care any more if she is alone, she can't stay alone at home at night..she has an ill fear from i' don't know what!!!

I'm fed up explaining to her i' feel comfortable only at my little place! I'm fed up babysitting others!! i'm younger than her and never in my life i relied on someone to take charge of me or harassing people to care about me like she is doing !!!

I'll kill my house owner for sure!!!