a new start before the new year! :)

I thought that moving from a place to another , leaving people to meet others, starting imposing your self again, showing your skills again, making effort to succeed in a new place will be difficult as any new start but it seems that i began to enjoy it :) :) ..i was looking for events i was fed up with the daily routine !! and i got what i wanted : a part of excitment!!! i have a new job, a new man, new stories and many things comming along!! it seems that 2010 will be so pomising !! I hope so ;)

crossroads

it is hard to choose ur road, it is harder to change ur road u don't know whether u re doing the right thg or ur precipitating thgs, is it the right time to make changes, re these just fears or wise thoughts?

In all cases it remains exciting to make new moves, to jump in ur fears just to see what will happens

my usual "but" !

He is black haired, tall, well dressed young man,
He is clever, active, daring, manly and he loves me :) .."but"

since i accepted to give him a chance i have not stopped being surprised : he calls me many times in the day, he wakes me up at the morning ( by calling me of course ;) :)) even when he is not obliged to wake up early , he doesn't sleep before saying good night and even if he makes this "mistake" he wakes up and run to call me to apology, every morning i start my day by a message on my FB with a song and a dedication from him;

He surprised me by his little stories- with me- before confessing ("déclarer sa flamme") : how he was watching me for months, how he tried to cross my way just to say hi and how i answered him with my friendly smile without knowing how he was feeling about me, how he took 3 days to confess to me.

He surprised me by passing me his mom on the phone to have a little chat with her;

He surprised me by kissing my hand ! and by confessing a week later that he never did it before with a girl cos he kisses only his mom's hand!

its seems like the love story which i was always looking for .."but"


it is my "usual but" !!: but... is he the right guy, but.. should i wait for a better, but should i give the chance to the two others, but.... am'I ready for a serious relationship, but... is he really loving me, but....do we belong together, but will he keep going like this or will he stop surprising me when i fall in love with him, but will he hurt me, will i hurt him ,...

when love knocks your door.....

when love knocks ur door and u don't know whether should u open it, keep it closed, open it a little bit just to see if it is a real love, it is a problem!!..but when three young men offer u their love at the same time and u don't know what to answer or how that is a Big problem!!

"Business is business"!! non ps business is"tbazniss"!!

Malheureusement les Tunisiens non ps encore compris la notion de business et surtout lorsque la personne avec qui ils traitent est une fillle!!!

Malheureusement ils ne font aucune différence entre business et tbzniss (business et drague)!!

Comme ts le monde ds le domaine d'affaires je suis obligée de donner mes coordonnées aux gens qui sollicitent mon assistance professionnelle (et je précise bien professionnelle! ) ms malhereusement je me suis exposée à des situations de malaise puisque certains dés qu'ils obtiennent mon numeros et je précise bien encore que je leurs ai donné mon numéros seulement ds un cadre purement professionnel!!! et pour des raisons purement professionnelles!!! me contactent ms non ps pour des affaires!!! ms pour me draguer!!!
Combien de fois j'estime que jai pu avoir des clients ms malheuresement il n'ont ds leurs têtes que etbazniss!!

et meme certains m'avouent qu ils ne m'ont parlé de business la première fois que pour avoir mon numéros et établir le conatct avec moi!

j'en ai marre de ces gens qui commencent à me taper sur le système!! pourqoui cette mentalité non civilisée et de non respect !! je commence à me douter si je pourais avoir de vrais clients un jour!! alors que je fait tt pour avoir une allure pro : mon maquillage est tj discret et mon habit est trés rigoureux!

Est ce que pour avoir ces "vrais" clients je dois être un homme!!

et ce qui est encore plus bizarre c'est que cette attitude non professionelle et même immature ne provienne ps seulement des jeunes gens ms meme des gens qui ont l'age de mon père et non seulement des célibataires ms même des gens mariés!!!!! et provienne des gens des milieux professionnels différents et voici quelques illustrations:

-Un officier d'une caisse de sécurité sociale qui a sollicité mon numéros ds un cadre pro m'appelle un jour férié!! + il m'appelle par mon prénon et non par mon titre (nakess bech yetrabej biya!) alors que je l'appelait par Si-- pr donner un caractère pro à notre communication!!+ je traitait directement le sujet pro ms lui ds tte la communication me tournait au rond pr finalement m'avouer qu' il m'a appler juste pr avoir mes nouvelles et me demander où je vais passer mon jour férié!!

-Un investisseur tunisien qui vit à l'étranger m'a demandé mes services pro et aprés avoir parler juste un petit peu business il m'a demandé si je ss engagée?!! alors qui il était marié et son projet en Tunisie va etre en partenariat avec sa femme étarngère(!!) et il m'a meme avoué que avec sa femme ca va duré juste 2 ans encore (!!!!!!) puis il ne tardera ps à epouser une tunisiènne (!!!!!)

-Un type qui travaille ds une sté pétrolière ayant l'age de mon père prend mes coordonées et alors que je lui ai bien précisé voilà c'est mon numéros pro il me répond: d'accord ms on peut parler d'autres choses que les affaires? (!!!)

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Rabi yssabarni w bara

I'M NOT FOR F******!!!

Angel "'lover" (1): angel!

Angel: yes

Angel "lover" (1) : i'feel sthg for u!

Angel (yeah!!)

Angel "lover" (1): u re so sweet, (bala blabla..) u have a great personality, u re soft, affectionate, ...
I like u (bala blabla..), and i like every thg in u,...

-as all girls i begin to live the dream:)-
Angel "lover" (1): at our next meeting i'll kiss u, hug u, and more!

-disapointed...it si not love ...it just sex!!-

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Angel "lover" (2): missing u so much

Angel: oh really !

Angel "lover" 2: yes sure but u don't feel me, u never cared about me or my feelings!

-I feel sorry for him-

Angel "lover 2": give me one chance! give ur self a chance to love me!

-why not?!!-

Angel: may be we should start to see each other again

Angel "lover 2": yes we should, u know u re a young charming girl, u should give the opportunity to ur self to live the real life!!
u should have someone to look after u, u should have a man to give u affection, u re human like us and any one in our age has needs ..physical needs..u re not a saint!!

-I feel disappointed as usually he seeks sex not love..and he is legitimating that by physical needs!!-

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Angel "lover" 3: i'm deadly wanting to hang out with u, i want to see u!

Angel: (after he insits), ok why not we can take coffee together one day

Angel "lover" 3: I'm going weekend to hamamet , do u want to come with me

Angel (frankly) : i can't

Angel"lover" 3: comme on we will have fun!

we will enjoy the sun and the sea, do u swim with bathingsuit,bathingsuit+"short", bikini or else,..

Angel (frankly )!!: no thanks

I feel disappointed...he is looking for fun and accesories (like sex may be,..)

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Angel "lover" 4:.... bla blabla

...I'm going to Turkey do u come with me?

Angel (frankly) thanks for the invitation but i can't

Angel"Lover" 4: no really u should come with me

Angel (trying to be polite in declining his invitation) : I already visited Turkey i liked very much Istanbul

Angel"Lover" 4: so u should come with me to enjoy again Istanbul

Angel (ppffffffffff)


why all men i meet love me......love me not for my self..love for sex, fun, ...should I bear a sign on which sould i write: I'm not a play girl!, I'm not a girl for fun!, I'm not a girl to F**********!!!, Does progress in our society means that values do not exist any more!!! does it mean all girls re the same!! no innocent girsl any more!! Why men do not any more make difference between "el bneya el 3akla" and bitch!! why our men treats women like sexobjects! I'm modern girl free to talk, to treat any subject, to go, to come, to travel, to meet people, ... but never never i will let down my values!! i seek love yes but to meet the person with whom i will share my life..only my husband will touch me ....i'm keeping my self untouchable just for him...may be it is to idealistic to platonic...in this point i confess i'm old fashion!!! and i'm proud to be!!!

Who really want me and love me , the only way to have me is a ring in my finger and a white wedding dress!!

I'M NOT FOR F**********

I'll kill her for sure!!!

I' can't stand any more, tolerate any more she is trying to steal from me the best thing i'm proud to have ..my freedom..once i'm home she is following me..knocking hard my door at any time at morning, noon, afternoon, night..even i don't open the door she knocks and knocks ...

I step in my home trying not to do any nose.... not to move any thing from its place ..not to open the window..to not use lights...nothing is working..she is like a ghost she finds me even i'm very well hiding!!

I hated the day i' was born ..i hated being kind, polite, altruist i hated my humanity tendency..

I'll become selfish i don't care any more if she is alone, she can't stay alone at home at night..she has an ill fear from i' don't know what!!!

I'm fed up explaining to her i' feel comfortable only at my little place! I'm fed up babysitting others!! i'm younger than her and never in my life i relied on someone to take charge of me or harassing people to care about me like she is doing !!!

I'll kill my house owner for sure!!!